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this is real love…

this is real love…

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20 1 / 2012

Relationships and I seem to be having a thing at the moment… 

You could almost say we were dating… 

(I know I’m so hilarious!) 

But seriously I’m learning alot as I continue to live life and I love to share and you, obviously love to listen… 

There is however a BIG difference between learning something in theory and putting it into practice… I now know alot about relationships in theory but not so much in practice, which is something im changing. If I want to live what I’m learning I’m going to have to take some risks…  experimentation to be exact… I normally love experiments, blowing things up is fun! Blowing up your own heart… hmm… not so much fun. 

I think it’s rather amusing that I can leap from an airplane and plummet towards earth with a giant plastic bag to catch me and jump off of a tower with only a giant elastic band tied to my ankles… but telling people about my feelings scares me! and I know I am not alone! 

But what is cool about this process of applying what I’ve learned in theory into my everyday life, is that, one, the people I’m learning to do healthy relationships with are also learning to do healthy relationships, and two, I’m trusting my God to pick me up if and when I make a mistake… He has healed my heart before so I know He can do it again.

So why am I still scared?

I have insurance, in a way… when I jumped from the plane and the towers I also had insurance but the stakes were much higher… my life was on the line… so do I value my hearts safety over my own life? 

This I find is an interesting revelation… 

One I think is true for most people, we risk our lives everyday in multiple ways yet how often to we risk our hearts? Our feelings? Our true selves? What are we afraid of? It must be truly terrifying since we would rather risk dying that revealing our hearts… 

But I have decided.

I am going to take the leap. 

I’ll let you know what I find during the free fall…